zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance

hi friends. did you know that everything is going to be okay? because i think it will. i have been trying to grow into a person who can give other people reassurance that they matter. because i think that is what so many of us are seeking. assurance that we are important to others. i once knew a person who was very good at reminding people that they mattered. you come to adore a person like that. because to someone who feels like nothing they are really matters, it's maybe a lifeline. because we are all searching for a reminder that we matter. hey, you matter! what a wonderful thing.

look at my cool title. i'm sure you're wondering what it is. for those who don't know "zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance" is a book written by robert m. pirsig. i have never read this book. maybe i never will. but i will always appreciate it, guess what i'm going to bring up! this band muna that i never shut up about wrote a song called "it's gonna be okay, baby." if you have ever felt like you are in a endless awful phase, i think you should listen to itl. regardless, i think you should all listen to it. and it ties in perfectly with my little ideology. the songs chorus consists of the repetition of the lines "it's gonna be okay, baby. it's gonna be okay." another reminder! i love reminders that life is wonderful. because i do not always know life is wonderful. i think i have been pretty open about my depression and how that affects me, and more often than not it comes in long periods of time that feel like they are going to last forever. and more often than not they don't. and it's one big up and down and spiral and line of things i don't know if i could decipher right now, but the song does a pretty good job of explaining that there are phases in life. it also shows the progression of recovery. which i like a lot, because a lot of songs about depression kind of wallow in that forever, and this one gets better. which i can appreciate, as someone who is trying to get better. and it's not all linear. but it's a process and it's in motion.

anyways, so the last chorus of the song is about reaching a place where you can acknowledge that it's going to be okay, and the zen and motorcycle maintenance line really just stuck out to me. the book talks about a man's search for meaning. sound familiar? the narrator strives for a rational explanation for everything, which i think i also do a lot. but i think so much of everything that happens in our lives are really a toss-up. and i think hardly anything is rational. maybe we try and rationalize it, but you never really know. which i think is terrifying and nice. you cherish the things you know, and embrace the things you don't. but that's my own personal take, not pirsig's. i should probably read the book. right now i'm really into eve babitz's "black swans". i know that's off topic, but this is my blog and i feel as though it's customary to update you on a few things that are non-existentialist. always been a broken record. don't get sick of me yet.

"you're gonna start to call friends,

you're gonna start to call yourself an addict.

you finally read "zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance."

you're gonna clean out your drawers.

you're gonna feel much more like god is a mystery,

and jesus is a metaphor.

yeah, you're gonna tell your reflection,

it's gonna be okay, baby." , "it's gonna be okay, baby" - muna

-epic awesome cool girl will probably never read zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance but will get to a place where she can read zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance