wednesdays and whatnot

hello blog! happy wednesday. i think wednesdays are my favorite day of the school week because they are just there in the middle. you know what to expect on a wednesday. mondays are days you wish were weekends, tuesdays are gross, thursday gives you a little taste of friday supposed bliss, and friday is always a letdown because it never goes as great as you thought it would. wednesdays are normal. nothing ever happens on a wednesday. which is a good thing. unpredictable events are the worst. something you will come to learn about me is i am not a fan of surprises. well that's a half lie. i like surprises that i can expect, like my mother deciding to order in dinner, or a promposal. these are examples of good surprises. bad surprises are finding out you have a 120 word vocabulary quiz next period that you, contrary to what you told your mother, did not study for. i'm sure you get the gist. right now i'm listening to "my tears ricochet" by DOCTOR taylor swift. truly a woman of wonder. i think people who give their opinion on music suck. because i didn't ask. also, who do you think you are and why do you care so much about what i'm listening to? don't yuck my yum. just treat people with kindness.

we've started the descent into the first layer of my personal hell, summer. i like summer less then the average person likes summer. it gets hot, and the heat makes being melancholy feel wrong. like i HAVE to be happy in summer. i am not happy in summer because i have an infinite amount of time on my hands. what does one do? i like the beach for about 5 minutes. then i realize there's sand between my toes and i can feel every atom in my body sweating. and the water provides no relief. it's hard to maintain my dignity after being tossed around by waves for 30 minutes. the water is always too cold, the sand is always too hot. i prefer going to the beach on cold days. nobody is there and i can sit, fully clothed, and repose for a while. i'm being dramatic. i'll have fun this summer, i hope you do as well. i just want it to be winter. being cold is easier than being hot, and during winter i have an excuse to stay inside and decay in my bed. "it's too cold" is what i would say, then i would proceed to watch american horror story for hours on end. i'm sure when i write something here in winter, assuming i'm still writing here in winter, i'll say i miss the warm sun and the feeling of sand. as of right now, my favorite season is autumn. the first month of school is always so exciting. then i remember everything is awful when i have to actually do work. but i guess we'll cross that bridge when we get to it.

i think i'm done for today. i can't say everything i wish to, i've got to save some material for later dates. until then, i'll keep you waiting.

"and you can aim for my heart, go for blood

but you would still miss me in your bones." - "my tears ricochet" , taylor swift

-epic awesome cool girl who misses winter